As I feel the season shift and new things come, the space in between, the separation, there has been one thing that I felt leaving me too. However, it's not a good thing you want out; that is self-worth. As the season is slowly changing, I felt something being pulled and being left behind in my past. At first, I didn't know what it was. Only the feelings of unworthy of the call, not strong enough, too fragile, were the only indicators that something was wrong. If I go back, I'll feel some sense of worth back but, times are changing so I know it won't last and soon I'll be lost. If I go back, my faith will not be exercised and courage will settle for what looks to be safe but is only unsafe. I hear the call, I feel the courage, but if I step out, worth feels snatched.
It only makes me look back to see what is pulling my worth.
I see a man with my child who is trying to take her from me (an evil spirit) I grieve because I feel that this child is a part of me than anything of him. I must go my own way but the child must come with me. She is mine. She is me. This child is my innocence and my worth. So this is the part where I rescue myself. I know my worth, and I know you know yours too. However, sometimes we can misplace our worth in our past. It's more common to hear someone say, I lost my worth when this person hurt me, or when I got fired or layoff, or when the abuse happened to me. However, it is also common to misplace (lose) your worth when you rely on that one victory being your only piece of worth that you have. When you start to view your worth only through your past victories, you actually begin to devalue yourself. Your worth is so much more! Guys, seasons change and they change because God will never stop showing you that He makes you worthy and valued. God's plan for us is to keep us moving forward, from glory to glory. Your worth can only be found in God. I know God has called many of us to be strong and courageous and to step into new things. Maybe you felt like me, BOLD but worthless. Rescue you! Your value, your worth is not found in what happened to you. Rescue you! Your worth and value has be found in God all the time. If He did it with you in the past, He can do it again in your the present and future. If He has called you, He has made you worthy of the call! He has valued you!