I prayed for love and God gave trouble.
I prayed for a faith and He gave me a droughts seasons.
I prayed for peace and He brought me through storms.
I prayed for humility and took me to lowly places.
I prayed for meekness and exposed my inner fears.
I prayed for commitment and allowed the unexpected.
I prayed for joy and brought me sadness.
I been waiting and waiting for Gods faithfulness. Expecting to see a big show of Gods faithfulness but I was blind to see His faithfulness in each day. Like a puzzle is to a day and the picture the end of the journey in the waiting of Gods faithfulness.
I know what it’s like to pray for something and find yourself praying even more when that something becomes out your control. I don’t know about you but, I prayed for love and God brought me trouble. I honestly feel like I won’t make it. I feel like there is not enough love in me to love as He loves. Primary because the love He talks about is the kind of love that required you to be understanding while you are being misunderstood. The kind of love where you are being lied to and He required your honesty and faithfulness to be as strong as the first. With simply that in mind, I constantly hurt and say to back to God, "that's not fair. Why would I allow myself to be treated like that way." But then I know Gods will, “I am pressing you. I am calling you to deeper waters, deeper roots, deeper realms, deeper understanding, just trust me" says He.
I don’t what the end of all of this will look like, and maybe its not about knowing the end to be faithful, patient, persistent, and loving in the now. Maybe the end is only the result of what you sow now. I know that. I know that it is. I know that what we sow in today, will determine your tomorrow reaps. However, despite all human strength, it is necessary to pray and ask God. It is necessary to bring forth your hearts desire to God for him to lead you and make a way. Alone we fail, but with God, he makes a way through our faults, and mistakes.