Satan embedded his lies that I wasn’t worth enough to anyone as he make believed that the absence of people in my life determined my worth. Over and over he used people to walk out of my life, and over and over he stole from me to appeal to my emotions and sink me into depression. He point out that failure of other and used it against me that everyone care only for themselves and care less none about me. He made me believe that people appriciating determine my worth, dignity, respect, love, Fatih, hope, and life. He said that I’ll never be anyone because I wasn’t rich, because I dint had the perfect life, because I grew up without a father, because I didn’t have leader in my life, because I was a women, because I have no friends, because I am all alone. And I believe his lie. I settle and grew comfort in that ill never be anything because I wasn’t what who he said I am and because I didn’t have what he said I needed to be loved. Satan assaulted and harassed me trying to destroy me. He began to see my heart for people and manuputaed them to manipulate and blind me from the very weapon I have against him. As a women you never be strong. HE said I was cursed because I felt love, because I felt compassion, because I was forgiving and people even though they had hurt me. But that was a lie too. IT was satan all along hurting me through hurting other people. He tried to put me against my own heart to love. HE scar my mind with trauma and tormented me for season to make me turn against myself. You should never forgive because they dont care about you. You deserve better. Why pray for them why care when they dont care even for themselves . Stop and give up on love. Look how much it causes you to loose. You hurt for them while nobody hurts for you! Focus on yourself. Stop carrying, you losing you identity. You can go through more pain. You aren’t strong enough. You are just a girl. You have no power. You have no stregh. Remember that you are alone. Remember that your life is not perfect.
But I rebuke that satan!
And one night the voice of the lord said to me.
You though that I didn’t care about your life by allowing brokenness in your life. You though I didn’t care when I gave that family, that relationship, those friends, that career, that hurt, that trauma, when isolated you and allowed nobody to like you and nobody to befriend you. You thought that I was cursing you?
Madai, your purpose is bigger than that, dont you see. I am writing your story as you breath today and you breath your next.
All this time I was with you!
Satan is trying to distract you by attacking you and I am allowing him to break all of this idols that you have believe that form your identity and purpose for your life. IT only hurts as much as you hold it and not let it go.
Havent you seen that you have overcome despite that you didn’t have what you thought you needed. Haven’t you seen how closer you been walking into the identity that I have given you? Haven’t you seen the character that I have given you. Love, hope, faith, courage, strength, value, virtue. You are more than enough. You are strong. The scars don’t identify you, they empower you because you are an overcomer. I am showing you through the darkness that you light. DO not fear for I am with you! Satan intended to harm you, but I intended for good. I am God over satan and his plans. I still have power over him. Nothing passes me without my will and is filter through my plan and my purpose over you! IF I allow all that rejection is because I was redirecting you to me. Now you can look back and see for yourself that nothing holds your value and can take way your value because I have created and I have formed you and because I have called you mine. If you were able to do it and make it without the help of this world you can do it and make it again for I am with you and I go before you! I know the plans I have for you! You make plans but I determine your steps.